Colorado pt. 2

so, today was the first day of the actual book convention out in Colorado. But, I got to see these really cool Christian art, and meet a sweet artist. As I looked through his art work, I almost began to cry at the fact that I never really understood about Jesus, until I see it in person. And he portrayed things so well....


here's one of his works, it is called "Calvary"

if you get a chance go to art4god.com and look at it closer! This one brought tears to my eyes, it made my heart skip a beat, and my feet unable to move. Because of my past, I never realized that when I was hurting and abusing my body, I was doing the exact same thing to Jesus. The pain portrayed in his face made me feel horrible for the things I've done. I have hurt myself for so long, in the past, and I never really have gone back to think about how I have actually hurt Jesus. As I was doing it as a way to find feeling again... in one sense or another, I was okay with hurting myself, but I'm not okay with hurting Jesus. He is the only one who I know will always be there for me through thick and thin.

this is what the author wrote about this picture... and I find it incredibly insightful to dwell on.

Broken hearts, broken homes, broken lives, and broken connections with God.
It is our lust to satisfy ourselves that slowly seduces us to destroy that same ‘self’ which we held in such high esteem. And it is only the tragedy of ‘self’ never transcending into unselfishness that so deceives us with the false freedoms we cherish above all else.
In one moment the threshold is crossed and we are lost.
Lost in the belief of our own power. Lost in the belief of our own strength and lost in our ability to recognize it.
We serve ourselves at the cost of others until there is only one unselfish person left who will intercede and sacrifice himself to endure our private hell.
Only God can go where all the doors are held shut by the enemy. Only God will stay even when the devil himself finally walks out on you. Only God will share in the fullness of your sufferings and never forsake you.
And ultimately it is only the lost ‘self’ that can lose everything and eventually tell, what they believed was a helpless God, to go to hell.

Goodnight! Love you all!